Hello it's been a long time.

I apparently have not blogged since 2009!

So much has happened!

So much has changed!

The biggest change came December 1st 2010.

You can see his photo here. His name is Jack Robert. He is my grandson. =-)

YES I KNOW! I'm the youngest grandma I know as well (I will be 35 this April)

Apparently my daughter, for all her protesting, is just like me! Well, like me in that we're both teenage moms. She is much smarter than I was. She is working (on mat leave), being a mom AND finishing her high school. She wants to go on to become a hairdresser/nail lady/ massager/something else but I forget. The good thing is, SHE WILL! She has her school picked out, already has the payment figured out and today she goes to school to discuss what she will need to give her a leg up when she starts. I don't know if she knows or will ever understand just how proud of her I am. She and Jack are living here with me until the summer. I am blessed with this time to be a hands on Grandma! He is a joy I can never explain. I love my children. I have never known such love as what I feel for my kids, but Grandma love is something more! It's AMAZING!

I will start blogging more fun stuff about Jack. He is 3 months old now, 18 pounds and yesterday was his first day in his jolly jumper. OH my GOSH he loved it! He's just so cute! His daddy is a Native and you can tell Jack is as well (I call him my little Eskimo). So when he was in his little jolly jumper he'd do this foot to foot then boot feet jump, and it looked like he was doing a funny dance. I told my hubby he was doing a rain dance! Sure enough, within the hour it started POURING outside! I don't care if the weatherman predicted it! My grand bebe made it happen! =-)

Another major change that has happened is my oldest son Timothy has moved to Alberta. I will save this for a whole other blog.

What is happening with me you ask? You probably didn't ask, but I'm going to tell you anyway!

I have made some profound changes in my life, my essence , my being.

AND I FRICKEN LOVE IT!

I have literally taken a good hard look at my life, my family, my friends and started wiping the slate clean.

I have said goodbye, or walked away from all the people who ever took advantage of me, mistreated me, or just treated me like I was a flighty piece of shit, which I guess goes under the category of mistreated me.

I've had some major feed back from those I've walked away from. Some think my husband is abusive and forcing me to shut out my family. This coming from someone who did have that happen and assumes everyone is in an abusive relationship. Also, she figures I'm to weak to actually turn my back on her. But I did. Thats the thing. I'm learning I AM STRONG! I can make my own decisions, I can do what pleases ME not everyone else. I no longer need to care for everyone else. It's EMMIE TIME!

By the way.

MY NAME IS EMILY! Or EMMIE if you prefer. Not Terese, not Theresa, Not even Terri.

Thank you for respecting me enough to take that into consideration. Oh wait, you've never respected me, so why on earth would I think you'd understand a single thing about me!

As you can see, I still have some pent up anger issue. I'm working through them :-)

It's not odd that i'm doing this. The only odd part is why I didn't do it YEARS AGO!

I've hurt some, others are fine with my decision. All in all, it's been good. It's been healing.

It makes me think of this quote:

A lot of people say they want to get out of pain, and I'm sure that's true, but they aren't willing to make healing a high priority. They aren't willing to look inside to see the source of their pain in order to deal with it.
-- Lindsay Wagner

I have made healing a high priority in my life. It has made me stronger and made my marriage beautiful.

And on to the most EXCITING EMMIE THING!

I am going to school. *dances around* I am taking Phytotherapy, naturalpathic-chinese medicine.

I have to admit, there is a LOT of western medical training involved! But I have learned, this is because you can not treat a western human without knowing what the "western ailment" is.

I will keep you updated on my progress. In 3 years you can address me as Dr.Emily McGregor.

Thank you!