School is ...

School is exhilarating. It's hard and challenging and it brings up a whole plethora of crazy emotions.

I'm 35 years old. Just starting to live for myself. MYSELF.

I've made massive changes in my life. In my mind. Most importantly in my soul.

I can't believe I'm here. I'm at this point, this place.

There are struggles. They are internal. It's very hard for me to strap my bag on and walk out the door every morning and catch that bus. The thought of failing and letting everyone else down can be overwhelming. The thought of failing myself and letting myself down is crushing.

It's hard to walk into this school with so many students no where near my age but with so much more educational experience.

The beautiful thing is.

I walk in to that school every day. Those student. Don't see my age. They see me. They see another student. They see someone that THEY can help. Isn't that what we are all there for? Learning to be teachers, learning to be healers. They teach me every day what it is to be human, to be part of a village. Maybe a commune. LOL

I have a project I will be starting tomorrow. For my Botany and Horticulture class. I will be planting some seeds and documenting their life. I have never planted something from seed before. This will be a new scary experience for me. I'm trying to embrace it! I'm TRYING DAMN IT. LoL

My goal is to blog it. I hope I can continue to do this.

Jack is growing beautifully. He's going through a cranky stage as we await the arrival of 2 teeth! We can feel them and I hope they pop out SOON! Mostly because we'd all love some sleep. LOL

Katie and Justin are moving into their own place @ the end of the month. I am super excited for them. For Katie. This will be her first place! How exciting!

Oh, follow up from my last post, Timmy has moved back from Alberta. *smile* I think he realized that instead of trying to find a family for himself, he had one right here.

Well I better get my butt off here. I had so much to say, until I started saying it!

Love and Light.