Going going poof

Well, I'm over my hurdle of emotions. Not feeling so angry and upset about it all, because really, what choice do I have but to deal with it until she leaves?
Why waste the energy on being cranky! LOL
I'm planning and trying to figure out what I need to buy and replace once she is gone. Seems a lot of what we thought we were going to have is slowly disappearing so my list is increasing =-D
It's not a bad thing, I like to shop! WOOOT

I'm looking forward to my son coming home. He's having a really rough time at Boot Camp. And as a mother, it gets under my skin. I look forward to having him home. I hope the new ways that he has been taught will stay with him. I am not sure I really have high hopes at this point, but we have to have dreams. LOL

The disease or the medication.

So, I was talking to a family member yesterday about the issues at hand and how best to deal with them. I didn't get anything useful out of it, though I'm sure this person felt they were helping me.
I was pretty much told I needed to just suck it up and deal with it, because it wasn't her fault she is the way she is, It's "the Disease".
The Disease?

We can't let mental illness control who we are. and in this case, she only started to in the last 10 years.
She was badgered into going on pension, Why? we won't go into that right now.
I see that partially she is a victim, but where does that end? She's been through a hell of a lot worse than anyone I know in life, and up until within the last 10 years, she always came out swinging. Always was so strong.

I know that a good deal of it is because of the shock she took when my brother was killed. But I've met other women who have been through it, and come out differently. I know, I know, we all react to grief in our own way.
*throws up hands*

What it comes down to is, This disease, isn't the reason for everything, it merely enables some to use it as a crutch.
Gives them the power to act any way they want, and it's "allowed"

It makes me so damn frustrated.

Ok, I really should go more into depth here, but, I have to be at work shortly and I haven't even gotten ready!
More later, or not.

It has been awhile

Yes I know, I've not been around or in the blogging mood for some time now.
I've been focused on finishing school and then getting a job, keeping the job!
You know lifes crap.
Things have been good and bad and ugly. Bill finally has his work Visa. Not that he's actively gotten a job with it yet! He's been working for a friend, which isn't bad! Don't get me wrong, it's just that, if my governmentgives you the ability to work.. legally , don't you think you should?
I'm feeling blue and resentful right now. and the safest person to take it out on is my husband. What an odd thing for me to say I know. But tis the truth.
It's not even HIM I'm resentful towards!

Ahh well, Working through it